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yes yes and yes - I think that being grateful and optimistic and mostly okay has put me in a place where I know that I am luckier than most but still really need help. I cannot tell you how distressing it is to go to my son's dad;s house for Christmas dinner, in a million dollar home (the rack of lamb was great though-) and see the photos, nicelky frames of the weddings and the safari. It's the safari that particularly gets me. Chris' step mom has been helpful to me in her way - suggesting impossibke ways to get a job and also coming to help after the surgery and checking in on me - but the safari photos, all nicely framed just kill me. How much did they spend for 8 EIGHT of them to go on a three and four week safari(s)? I can only imagine. I'm happy Chris had the experienece of a month in Africa and seeing all the animals and staying at the luxe places but it completely makes me nuts to think of how a portion of the money soent on that would, could make my life free of the financial stress I'm under. I makes me crazy - so I try not to think about it but the framed photos got me. So trying to write, or work on writing, a go fundme appeal that is honest and real and not sounding as pathetic as I feel.. HOw do you practice writing it? I don't even know where to start. And i have to ask Chris if he would post it - would Lexie post it - there are people out there who would help who I don't know and they don't know, but if they would post the appeal, ut would have legs. I'm almost afraid to ask. BUt will. (trhey didn't get back to the house until after 3 so... and I swear, just what they spend on wine would supppport me) Time to get out for the mandatory walk. My health care nurse stops by today> Really sweet person and I will miss her. And I have two more radiation treatments and then one week before surgery. And I am getting scared. The US absolutely sucks . Sorry fro the grimness Now time to get myself

Merry Christmas to all - And, yes, I truly believe that they don't put an order in for merchandise at the Weverse Shop until it's ordered. THis is the wrong way to do it. Duh. I was oonce, ever so long ago, in catalog sales ehici relies on projected sales - there are formulas to us. Someone does research on how many of something will sell, and what sizes and colors, and then orders anywhere from 60-80% to have stock on hand when something is offered. There will also be a "back-up"order for an additional 20-40% that can be activated whenever. Sizing can be tricky but it's something one learns... I dont know who they have working for them, but clearly no one whoever worked in online sales of any kind. @Whoopiewoop - Good that you're writing again. God knows, ity;s hard to get motivated, Especially in pain. I have been given, I swear, at least three dozen different ideas for me to go make money to supplement my paltry monthly amount so I can stop worrying about having to sell the house and have enough for emergencies. Nearly everyone is impractical or doesn't take into account my age or what I did do when working - it's not like there are research geologist joibs just popping upo. All research positions are taken by grad students. I know this. I have never been an administrator. I can't type much as the carpel tunnel makes digital manipulation painful or impossible. I am not going to stand at the front of Walmart on a schedule, greeting other people (nor would i be able to stand long) I am going the animal route, I can take care of dogs and cats (and bunnies and even birds).. i can administer medication and walk dogs. Sometimes people will have kitties who require twice a day insulin but don't want to crate them at the vet when they leave town. I can do this. The biggest obstacle at present is recovering from all the surgery and radiation. And I have Korea - but may need to hold off one trip a year or something. And then there is just getting my name out there to a clientele who can afford me. My sister can get $100 a day for checking in on cats. But that's Boston, and she already knew a thousand people whose kids went to the private school her boys went to. As I recover from this next sirgery, I'll work on gettiing a "resume" for online stuff., There is Rover but they take a lot of the money - but one can make a separate agreement with an animal owner once there is a relationship. Sounds daunting, really. And I still don't have Bella hone.... And dealing with Chris - who I haven't had a moment alone with - and the chaotic wife. Evidently, it is not considered good taste to ask for money directly from people, even if you know them well. I don't feelI'm desperate enough to do a go fund me, but I'd like to. And there are others havibgm ore difficult times. Enough grim ness for today. Lexie has Alexa playing obnoxious Christmas music. I could puke.

Merry Christmas all - and I had radiation today so was SO close to Sylvia (the machine broke down yesterday.) Chris and Lexie are here, That says it all, I am overwhelmed and just want to go to bed, They got in last night at 4 am so we are opposite sleep schedules. They want to watch a movie and I want to go to bed and watch some BTS, Happy days

I'm so happy that there is some Bam content. I wonder how much time JK spends with hjim and if his huge new place has a yard big enough for a dog.

Merry Christmas from the past. The way past. Love them so much.

This is not the first picture of paws or the bottom of little legs that Tae has posted and I wondered if he's gotten a new pet. He loved his pup so much - but I wonder if getting a new pet months before a tour is a great idea, Of course, his family could look after it while he's touring. He has months before he has to leave town - I do hope he has a new baby.

I just - because I asked if there was an earlier surgery date, got myself moved to a Jan 7 surgery day., My god - that like weeks away., I'm stunned. I'm ready but not ready.. It's also 7 days after the last radiation. Packing it in.I am so ready yet so scared and so not ready. But recovery will be sooner. Ready for the BTS comeback!! And the subsequent bloodbath. St least I can try for tickets in Seoul. And I will be going back early April.. I am not looking forward to surgery or recovery but will be happy it's done. Too blown away to say much more yet. Sndrea - 'm glad the treatment is working but wish you were;nt so uncomfortable More tomorrow after i've awakend from all this. 3rd radiation tomorrow. And Chris gets in tomorrow night - they are driving. so much happneong too fast-

God, I hope he can get boots that fit hom properly (and he is GORGEOUS)

Do you think it's just the precinct? Or all of them? (It's a big city) And what time zone are we in today?

Hey, has anyone else heard about a "golden membership"? I've seen in mentioned on Facebook. Evidenbtly you are offered and automatically gold if you've been a member for three years. How about 5 (at least) Global and US. I'm being a but prickly about it

I never mentioned the cancer scare and didnt even attach the word "cancer" to it until I got the call from radiation I just couldn't make it real. If I just put it on the back burner and called it a "spot" found in a CT scan, it was a "spot:. I thought of it only a a "spot" until it became real on Wednesday night. Then there was no denying it and it became an "in my face" reality. Having this ON TOP of the all the surgical issue, past and future, was too much, And there will be more surgery in a matter if weeks and I was s SO afraid the two were going to overlap time wise and that would have made both impossible. Now this will be five zaps and gone by Dec 31. Still no date for the reversal surgery and still don't know when Bella comes home, I wasn't keeping anythin gfrom anyone. It was simply a "spot" on my lung and a simply couldn't give it any more reality space than that. And I feel badly for TXT - why not them to perform for the NBA thing, I guess it's just the glitter of the "new " thing but I feel TXT has been getting shafterd lately.

I'll take the full size Jin with my hotel, please💜 I got a call yesterday and today is my first day of radiation. I bruised into tears. I don't know why the reality of what was happening all of a sudden came over me, but it was overwhelming. I am grateful that there is a way out. And it will all be over, at least this part (still have the surgery to go through but the other nasty) but the threat of cancer eating me up will be gone by the 31st. 2026 is going to be a brilliant year I would recoup nicely in that Jin hotel .

No way. He could do a cameo but all 7 guys will be in rehearsel. ALL the time (19th an occasional appearance at a brand event and even that is going to become a time issue. I agree with Namjoon. DSYLM is maybe the the third or fourth best song on that album

I wonder when this was taken? https://www.threads.com/@casseyjinkim/post/DSNVYHtFVNS?xmt=AQF07WIJHiMZ0sgl370DVE_ikKTPIXFpjFhPHqY6kXjtf27ReGs33AZAKlxaHdzLXDefRQJg&slof=1

why does it look like Tae is there, too? Hooded uo

And old but illuminating clip -

And I'm not really. Not at all. (One: Nike is for everyone). Not only is he an athlete, he embodies their long used slogan "just do it". He barely stops moving. (Although i've never been able to figure out how any of them can slip and slide and dance as they do with sticky soles....)

And such a waste of money, too. Yoongi. Smiling. OT7. Smiling,. Together. I'm happy

He will never stop dancing. Ever. But I love how they look after each other and think about each other and look forward to their future together. JK cooking for Namjoon and even having his books there whether or not he was reading them or not just beside the point, he had them there to make them feel comfortable. I call that love.💜 Real brother loving friends love.

Time to album: They are kind of starting from scratch. I suspect that they will use some favorites from before when they go on tour (because asking for 25 new songs is no possible). Turuly, it's only been a couple of months. And there is so much to production the average ARMY doesn't understand. Plus - we are dealing with perfectionists, They are not going to release something remotely mediocre. And are still working on choreo. God knows it takes a LONG time for even one song. And RM will remain a sort of spiritual leader and certainly the one that others will go to if they are having trouble writing or something in their personal lives. But Namjoon can't tell anyone what to do. He can suggest. All members are keenly aware of "scandal" and how that can impact them individually and as a group. They know the rules. The rules haven't changed for idols. It is actually pretty remarkable how under the radar their personal lives have been. [hey - I miss the teenagerBTS as much as the next ARMY, but these are not teenagers.}

Only for few hours now as i want to watch, too. It's my son's account so - sent in a DM oh - okay -I'll watch tonight..

Hobi doesn't do "standing still" even for a pose in these promotions for more than 5 seconds. He is a level above all the rest. (Tae is far more skilled at being still, but movement is Hobi.)

kind of fun - https://www.threads.com/@vkth_.v/post/DRue2wyk5z_?xmt=AQF07NEibrgrZeaZZxygix2WtmCxDsMlP5P-RHFQ2Q5gEKuOESPDJFhShbMaG0D95dP9WtJX&slof=1

After seeing what JK regularly carries around with him IN town, this bringing nothing must have put an actual panic into him. (Though I imagine their team brought along what they knew the guys would need.) In country: small purse, small wallet, credit cards, a little cash, kleenex, lip balm. Tiny pen and an index card. Out of the country: add a passport.

Has this group nearly doubled in size? I remember it being four or five best buddies...