I've been really sad and heartbroken since the FS at JNat. That loss hit me really hard and watching the performance was very painful that I avoided everything associated with it for two days. Now, I am a bit calmer and have been thinking about it and just realised, it is not the loss that I find upsetting but the fact that he couldn't perform like he wanted to, or like we know he could.
For me, Yuzu has always been an inspiration to do my best no matter the circumstances. To push through and show everyone what I am capable of regardless of the results. To aim higher and improve without waiting for others approval. To be the best I can be for myself and for the people who believe in me. This time, I feel that even though he tried, he couldn't do that. Yuzu is so much better that what he showed that day and he knows it. This is nowhere near Yuzu's real potential. I think that is what hurts most, not that he lost, but that he was not able to put out a performance he is proud of.
So, my wish for Yuzu for the new year is health and happiness as well as to have the performances he always dreamed of. May all his time on ice and off ice be a joyful time with only progress and improvement in the future
Also Merry Christmas and happy holidays to all the satellites in the Planet. May all of your wishes and dreams come true