TokyoDream

Thanks for your message funny story! I Haven't seen it yet but I've resd all about it already. Basically I turned my Internet off all morning (Conference time in the UK where I live) so I would't see anything just in case it was bad. But I had told my friend who I was having lunch with, and he had watched the news for me and said "they're not bad at all, do you want to know?" I swear it was a good thing cause I was going NUTS. Weirdly enough I still feel really down tonight, when really the press conference was rather positive considering the circumstances. I guess I'm just really attached to Yuzu and want the best for him, the joys of being an empath...urgh.

My God, reading the summary of today and seeeng the pics has lifted my mood considerably. I might be overthinking this now but I hope none of Yuzu's smiles were forced today, cause he felt the need to reassure us or something.

I can' watch the conf yet and have seen a few summaries - can anyone tell me if overall Yuzu looked a bit happier?

OMG I just saw pics of him with a big grin!! I can't seem to be able to share them but I hope someone does.

Press conference is approaching... Yuzu we love you, we support you no matter what and we are immensily proud & inspired by you as a person and as an athlete. In the last few days your motivation and resilience has helped me push my own boundaries, in areas that are much less impressive than sports, but that matter to me, and for that I am very thankful. I'll be arriving to work right as the press conference begins and I'm too scared to watch in case Yuzu looks even a tiny bit upset (even though I will understand, it's only been a few days) , so I will try and wait 10 hours to check the news, which seems absolutely impossible.

My sister saw Hanyu skate his FS and had never seen him before. She said he looks like a "gracious dragonfly"

As I'm fairly new I can't speak for the others but I don't think I've seen posts such as the ones you mention. All I see, and all I feel, is sadness at seeing him sad and disappointed with himself. If his interview after the FS had been him being cheerful and saying "oh well, I tried but no big deal" I would personally have been much less impacted. I'm not judging him for being upset by the way, he can be whatever he wants to be. It's the pressure he put on himself that makes me sad.

Oh thanks for that, I'm so glad! I wasnt sure as I though athletes might have to travel alone due to Covid.

What did he reply?

Thanks so much everyone for the welcome and the kind words - you made me cry but I was already a wreck It's 4pm where I live and I'm about to attempt at my first meal. You'd think I'm a teenager in love or something, but I'm a 32 years old grown woman!! Our only consolation today is that it appears there won't be any groundbreaking announcement, but rather a standard interview. I'd rather Yuzu took his time before making any rash decision, the FS was only a few days ago and he needs time to process. I hope he's surrounded with people in Beijing, maybe not physically (I don't know how much he would venture out with Covid still around) but at least on the phone etc.

Hi everyone, new here - this is a lovely website and it's so good to meet so many people who care for Yuzuru. I hesitated posting this because it's a bit off-topic, but I thought you guys more than anyone around me would understand. I've been SO sad since the FS the other day that it's had a toll on my mental health, a much bigger toll than I would ever had imagined, and the ridiculous part of it is that I've only followed Yuzuru for a few weeks (I do tend to be very sensitive, to sum me up quickly). I used to be a die hard Yuna fan but then kind of stopped watching figure skating for a bit and came back to it for these Olympics, which means I didn't even seen Yuzu win in 2014 and 2018, although obviously I've since then seen countless videos. I've never felt so "caring" and concerned about any skater before. It's not about the fact he placed 4th, or didn't quite land the 4A, he's a beautiful person and a skater out of this world, and nothing he does or doesn't do will ever change that, which is why you are all here rooting for him obviously! I could handle anything happen the other day but seeing him sad and disappointed in himself just ruined me. I've literally been sad or crying, not eating much or sleeping well since the FS took place. I've been on this forum and various websites/Instagram, refreshing pages obsessively trying to see if there were any Hanyu news. Obviously it's all a bit ridiculous to be that affected about something like this in the grand scheme of things, but it's not exactly something I can just shrug off. All I want, like all of you, is for him to be healthy, happy with himself, retire when he feels like it and not because he's being pressured into it, and overall be satisfied about his career. I guess one thing that makes it so much harder for us is that he doesn't have social media so we can't "check" on him, even though social media can be fake and he doesn't like to show sadness, being the humble, reserved person he is. Don't get me wrong, I fully understand why he doesn't have social media and I respect his decision! I'm sorry for this long post, which is just me saying how upset I am, when you guys don't even know me. I guess I needed to talk to people who know what it feels like.