I've never written on the General chat forum, only competition and ticket related ones so it feels weird to do it now, but I needed a space to release some of the sadness of this weekend. I don't mean to bring down anyone who sees this but is this honestly real? After 2ish days it still feels unreal. I was at home, working on an essay and refreshed my twitter page and saw that he had fallen. Knowing the magnitude of what happened last year, I didn't take the situation that seriously in the first 5 minutes (thinking at first that fans had overreacted), but then I read he left practice. Still, I decided to wait because apparently someone said he had done this before at ACI18. When he skated, I thought that meant it wasn't so bad but as every day passes I'm starting to get awful deja vu and its quite honestly depressing - I don't know how Yuzu deals with it. If I was him I'd be crying all the time at the unfairness of the world/ fate. His perseverance is why we all love him but the waiting is honestly so horrible (the worst part for me personally, and I'm usually a patient person by nature)...last year it nearly drove me insane. I don't know what else to say, but I guess thanks to everyone here who understands and who is trying to infuse this forum with positivity!